Friday, April 19, 2013
Five Minute Friday time again! Todays prompt is JUMP
He squeezes his eyes shut, fear washing over his face and my Mama's heart is torn. I see how scared he is, I can feel it myself, but I also know how much he'll love it if he'll just push past that fear and GO. He's my first-born, my cautious child. But he's also the one who loves to dance. The one who throws himself into his tasks with abandon- it's all or nothing with this guy. So I encourage him, trying my best not to let my own fear for him show: "Come on, buddy, 1 2 3 Jump!" The cool waters of the lake lap gently around my shoulders as I look up into my sons face. He's perched right on the edge of Papa's boat and I can see how very badly he wants to pretend he's not scared and just go- but again he hesitates. "I'm right here buddy, I promise I'll be right here, just jump to me, you'll love it, I promise!" Minutes drag by as he wavers and his Daddy and I take a few more runs to show him how it's done. Oh he wants it. Come on baby, don't let fear take away your right to fly. He edges closer. I watch the thoughts go through his little head- he can see himself leaping through the air and splashing into the cool water below. He edges even closer. My words catch in my throat as I realize this is a moment between him and God. I've made my promises. I'm right where I said I'd be. Mama, Daddy, Grandma and Papa hold a collective breath as he edges to the side, takes the tiniest hop and plunges into brave. His grin surface before the rest of him as we watch something click inside his heart. We didn't lie. He wants to go again!
Now it is his example that I must follow- when my Daddy calls me to a place I long to go but I must first hurdle that wall of fear. He's promised He'll be there. I can see it. I want it so bad. What will your answer be when the Father calls you to JUMP?
Friday, April 12, 2013
One of my very favorite bloggers Lisa-Jo Baker has this thing on her blog called Five Minute Friday, it's basically a link-up of lots of different bloggers who write for five minutes, and five minutes only on the prompt she gives for that day. The idea is to not over think, worry about grammar and stuff and making it perfect, but to just write. I tried two times before and it just didn't go- so here's my first official Five Minute Friday post; hopefully I'll learn to get a little more in there with time, but it is what it is and I finally did it!. Today's prompt was HERE.
In a couple of years when... As soon as this happens we'll... When this is over... I spent my whole childhood dreaming of "when." I have a pretty good imagination, I can go for hours on a good day dream. Oh the things I've planned in my head. I never grew out of that. The dreams have changed a little, but I still find myself, quite often actually, dreaming about "someday." Someday my hubby, who works so hard at 2 1/2 jobs will have a real teaching contract and his own classroom and tangible evidence of all the work he's done to get there. Someday we'll live in a house of our own, with real roots here. We won't be living in someone else's space, we'll be carving out our own. Today though, TODAY I am thankful that even though my husband hasn't gotten to keep a contract, he not only has one, but 2 1/2 jobs to provide for us- jobs he enjoys at that :) Today I'll be thankful for this house, that could be much smaller, much more crowded than it is, and that even though it's not "ours" we've had liberty to make it look like it belongs to us. Today, instead of wishing for tomorrow, I'll be thankful to be HERE, right NOW. Because one day, not so very long ago, here and now was only "someday."